What a day...

=.=

emo all day long.. first, i was not really in a good mood when i reached school.. then, they had this prefect gathering after our duties... so okay, the form 4s are there so i went around asking whether they already prepared the lyrics which are supposed to paste in the programme book thingy... what were my answers? a big fat HUH? only chee yian and hsien yin prepared and the others were like smiling away.. why i oughta give them a piece of my mind! 

ouh... so you think its so easy to do all this crap huh? you wanna try or not? summore the camp its around the corner and you're laughing away?! what kinda sick people are you? sheesh.. 

FINE, i went to cut those cards myself then... i don't need anyone.. i can handle it on my own...

joanna came to offer help but i rejected her offer because she too got stuffs to do.. and my other normal friends came to offer help too yet i did the same thing...

i was nearly finishing those cards until hannah and zhi yin came to help out... dunno why i didn't reject them.. maybe i'm too scared and i feel sorry or something... not really sure though.. anyway, they really did help me a lot and i really appreciate it! thanks you guys.. >.<

and we did our bio experiment in the lab... and i continued to cut those lyrics while hannah and zhi yin went to find more lyrics... so cool.. they did a great job...

dunno why i was so mad about something.. hmm... maybe its just nothing.. i guess i was just being too much.. i hate my mood... ouh.. i remember.. i hate myself because i didn't borrow hannah the peka first before i lent sze li.. i mean sze li went around and she asked me whether am i lending my peka to anyone.. i said NO... so she said lend her... so i was like okay... but then i thought of hannah... so i felt really really BAD... i'm being such a loser... hannah took the trouble yesterday bringing me my physics exercise and i did nothing in return... AHHHHHH... sandra ong is a total idiot... =.=

so okay... i did tell hannah that i'm gonna lend her tomorrow... sorry for letting you down hannah... please kill me.. can hate me also.. i don't mind now... sigh...

hannah and yun zi helped to cut those shapes and they were really NICE... >.<

THANKS A LOT... and SORRY!!!

Proud of being a part of NDC :P

when i was like standard 6? i was kinda eager to study in ijc...? hahahahaha.. because all my cousins are there.. but then my dad said he wanted me to continue learning chinese so he sent me to NDC.. plus, its near to our house so its rather convenient lo.. =.=
so i applied for ndc and i got accepted.. i was kinda happy? lol.. i dunno... because i was the one and only person in keh seng to be sent there.. and no friends following.. that one i don't really cared much...
so when i was staying in my tuition centre on 31st december 2004 because we were like having this new years eve count down party.. and i had orientation the following day.. so i attended it and the school was like so huge and nice? those prefects standing there was like so COOOOL... >.< and at that split second, i was beginning to like ndc more and more... lol
so on the first day of being in my new school.. the prefect board actually have this orientation week for the freshmen.. we played games, danced and sang songs... it was fun and ndc ROCKS!!! hahahahahaha...
and i made new fwends.. hehehe.. at first i got like cultural shock or something because those people originated from ndc primary were really... err.. open and they talk in a rude kinda manner or something... so i sat at the back with my new friend.. she was nice and all... she influenced me with all those mangas.. hahahaha... so in that year and in that class.. oh yea, second class.. i was all confident and i was super determined what i'll be achieving this time.. because science and maths changed to english and i was kinda happy that i won't be a loser anymore.. lol... and i was well prepared for anything that time.. the teachers also started to realise my existence? hahahaha.. but that was not really what i want.. then again i had this wish that i hope maybe the teachers there would still remember my name and what i'm capable of..
and in mid year, i got 1st in class and that was the first time ever for me to get 1st in whatever i achieve in my life... >.< heee... but there's some people in class maybe envied what i got because they were competing as well.. okay, maybe its my bad for getting 1st? but i really want it though.. so i worked hard to earn it...
there're seniors in ndc who inspired me and all.. i wanna be like them too.. i really really DO... and there's this girl.. her name is ong kay rin.. hey.. ONG also le.. lol... she sat for pts in standard 3 and she skipped her grade and actually she is one year older than us but then she joined those seniors who are 2 years older than us... besides this, here's an even awesome one.. she defeated all the seniors in her class and got 1st!!! OMG... she's really awesome! she's a total prodigy! in every aspect she's perfect.. lets see.. not only super duper smart... she's tall.. fair.. pretty.. has good body figure.. lol.. good in sports and she's good in her three languages!!! total brainiac right?
our school have this cross-country thingy every year and i was surprised that she got one of the top 10s in the senior group.. i was like wow.. in my heart i told myself I WANNA BE LIKE HER TOO!!!
so yep.. this year, i tried real hard.. actually i've been building my stamina last year end.. so yep, i got 8th place in the senior group.. weeeee... hahahahaha... i'm so really happy...
but now i got lazy and am scared of jogging alone.. so i didn't go jog anymore.. lol...
something special about ndc is that i found many weird but fun friends.. they are super funny though they talk like super naive stuffs.. LOL.. i always laugh when they talk about those sick jokes.. and they don't really like hate you because they're jealous or anything... that's why i'm proud of being part of them... hehe..
another reason why i'm being antisocial because i have LOW self esteem.. i'm scared to talk because i'm scared that my english sounds weird.. =.=
but i don't mind my chinese sounding weird because they're used to it.. lol... and one of the seniors said she likes to hear me speak in mandarin? LOL... weird but i enjoyed being with them.. hehehe.. i used to make those seniors laugh like hell and they really seemed to like it.. XP
so i guess that's all about ndc? lol.. i'm glad that my dad made the right decision sending me to ndc and not to you know.. hahahaha.. because i think i may change being like those biatches there.. >.< class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">i'm easily influenced lo.. XP

The beauty of patience? lol

well, to be honest again.. when i was working that time, there's this guy disturbing me right? and i took revenge disturbing back? okay... we talked for like a month because i was working there for a month too... so he mentioned about his gf or something.. and i was like... so good got gf.. i'm such a loner lo.. he told me to be patient? lol.. i was like half taking that into account and half not... so i didn't bother much of these...
and he kept teasing me also.. stupid fella... argh!!! yea.. i know he's such a jerk lo... =.= never mind.. i, sandra ong... will continue to wait... dunno don't care... maybe its not gonna happen for this typical person here but i'll still continue to live my life although it sucks big time... that was what i thought all the while...
nope, i haven't given up yet.. i waited and waited and waited... people come and go.. so i met new friends and they walk in and out of my life... like i even care... so i started to focus on my friends... i mean school girl-y friends... hahahaha... maybe i'll be happier being with them without thinking of anything else like those stupid stories and fantasies...
yea, about the girl guides camp... i met this junior... she's really helpful and its nice helping each other... okay.. you can say junior magnetism activated at that time... because friends the same age exerts pressure and i don't feel like hanging out with them... they couldn't really make me laugh like the way those juniors do...
well, fate seemed to be sympathetic... maybe it knows that i'm like too miserable to live another year or something... and someone just happened to choose the right time and the right you know and appeared once again... lol... i never thought such err.. chances would actually happen to me... so i was just lucky i guess.. hehehe...
so okay.. i thought friends only ma... can be close friends maybe.. i don't care.. as long as i have a good and nice friend its already enough.. though sometimes i kinda think too much but i would try to avoid that thought.. you know.. THAT THOUGHT... don't wanna be perasan too...
but i did tell you how i feel being.. Jealo... yea.. i also told you 2 times too.. and you were blur and you felt guilty.. dunno why... okay, i guess when i was jea.. i already.. had that thing going on in my mind... so i couldn't avoid it.. its getting stronger... lol.. dunno what to say... was speechless everytime though... but i tried to hide it... as sneaky as possible... hee...
right, i did give some hints but i guess they didn't seem to work or something... so suan liao... lol... and i didn't know you gave me hints too though.. XP silly me.. it felt good? gotta admit it.. it really did give me happiness and all... its like i'll be the only one having that kinda feelings all to myself... no one can ever have it... thats how i felt... hahahaha... i could have sworn that i was like soaring in the skies above...
that day haven't come yet.. nope.. not yet.. hahahaha.... i told you i have a foster brother... no sister and no other girls in the house except my foster mother... so yea.. i was busy packing and all... hahahaha..
right.. nearly forgotten.. i didn't get myself involved with other guys because like what for? lol.. seriously, though just friends but i think you're the very best already... hehehe... and i'm still proud of myself for not indulging myself in unnecessary stuffs.. i was on the safe side then..
so the day had finally come and i was speechless at first.. because i couldn't believe it would actually happen between us.. i was like this =.= because it was still very imaginary.... lol.. its true true though... its like impossible... you-me.. me-you? do i deserve this ah?
so i requested for a confirmation to prove that it wasn't a practical joke or something.. XP and it proved to be true though... and i'm really living in reality here...
well, i'm glad i had the patience to wait until the right person to step onto my doorstep... so i'll say... WELCOME... lol...
so i hope its long enough because i think there's more but someone here just couldn't stop bugging me.. she wants to use the com already... sighs... oh well, i'll try to think of a good one.. i mean i want the very best in the world for the one and only you... so no mistakes or anything can ever occur.. yep.. perfect for you... ^^

DREAMS REALLY DO COME TRUE

lalalalala... i dunno whatta say.. okay, about checking mails? you do know that those people like to send those if-you-send-this-to-dunno-how-many-friends-your-crush-will-bla-bla-bla something like that? and if you don't you'll have like 7 years of bad luck? lol... okay... i was like always falling for those stuffs... since they're just mails so i'll send how many i want.. lol.. and i'll wish that i'll meet someone NICE and hahahaha.. you know.. XP
since i've already.. you know.. lol.. so i wouldn't even bother to layan all those kinda mails already.. i mean i have what i want and what more could i ask for? i'm simply the luckiest girl to get what i wanted the most in this whole wide world and i'm glad that i'm sandra ong... lol
now i won't ever ever give up on my life anymore because i nearly did once or twice.. when i was all down and all... no one was there.. no one can understand how i felt.. i hate that feeling.. it sucks big time...
so now i've found someone so sweeeet, understanding, nice, humorous and so CUTE (physically and mentally..lol)... and he's all MINE to keep and treasure... mine Mine MIne MINe MINE!!!!!
i suddenly feel like singing.. dunno why.. hahahaha..
okay.. here goes.. didn't expect any good things would happen to me ever in my life.. i was always like i'm gonna be a loner.. maybe i'll adopt someone when i grow up.. lol.. i forgotten for what reason.. hahahaha... sounds stupid...
well, what can i say... you're totally right.. since i've already got the best thing of all... there's a price to pay... hey, i'm like owning something that would keep me alive forever and ever... actually, it feels real good to let out everything to someone you trust with your life... hehehe...
i know this is nothing compared to the life is reflecting on a story blog... this is just a warm up? i haven't gained my stamina yet.. hahahahaha... just you wait and see... i don't mind 1000 times... XP
ouh.. i haven't made my point yet... okay, here it is... my point is... dreams really do come true... i was like wishing or maybe yearning for something that i couldn't dream of having.. fortunately, it came true.. just like a fairy tale... i dunno how and i didn't see it coming... things are so unpredictable.. thank GOD so very much! i'm really grateful and i just couldn't ask for more... nothing can ever beat this... lol...
P/S : remember which disney princess i like the most.. lol.. XP

My presumption is proved to be true

okay.. today i didn't care much... so during bio period i sat on my usual seat in the lab.. and i also reserved a place for her but then she went to sit in front of me... suan liao lo... =.=
she was like angry or something.. so i asked hui tin to sit beside me... after bio period we went back to our class and i felt even awkward...
during recess, i was standing on my duty spot with hannah and she came down glaring at hannah... >.< haizzz.. hannah was predicting that she'll break down anytime soon.. so after recess she came up with watery eyes and yup, hannah was right.. sze li and zen huei asked me to cheer her up and stuffs.. i did try my best to do so but all i get was nothing.. nothing.. no.. no... what was i supposed to do? i got nothing.. so i just let her cool down for a bit.. well, i guess the whole thing started last wednesday where she was counting on me to bring her homework and stuffs to mr oh's because she was absent on that day.. so i forgot to bring my book there for her to copy so i felt really really bad.. i apologised to her by sending a message saying i'm such a loser because i couldn't even complete a simple task.. and i recalled what happened last time.. i'll do whatever it takes to make it up to her.. so yea, that was what i said..
and on the following day.. i felt weirder.. she didn't wanna talk to me? err.. what happened? i thought we were totally cool wtih stuffs.. but then it turned out this way.. so i continued talking to hannah and all.. well, we were really close at the beginning than with hannah.. because i wasn't ready to tell hannah anything yet.. not the right time? but eventually, hannah found out herself so i guess there's no need to hide anything anymore.. so i let everthing out without further hesitation.. so from that point, both of them were equal and as time passes by three of us got closer.. when i have stuffs to tell, one would be dutying and the other would be in the big hall.. so which one should i tell first? err.. so in order to be fair, i wouldn't mind if i were to repeat what i said to the other... so they were like a lever balance.. sometimes, i'll accidentally put more load on one side and the other would become lighter.. and i did realise my mistake so i tried talking to them as much as i could? the fact that hannah is sitting beside me and it is likely for me to talk to her more but i would still turn to the back to talk to my friend..
but there's one day, she asked siew tin whether i was talking to hannah more and ignoring her.. siew tin told her that she think too much.. but then that idea really got into her.. she acted cold towards us and that was what happened i guess..
so just now, i burst into laughters when hui tin was singing the pussy cat dolls' "when i grow up".. it wasn't that she sang badly but it was funny.. i know its bad of me to do that.. but it was funny what.. couldn't help it...
we didn't talk until she took her bag and head for the door when school dismissed.. i managed to say goodbye but she was like reluctant to reply? suan liao.. i stayed back in class with sze li and hui qi talking about what drastic actions should be taken tomorrow.. stupid but that was all i got.. so after our discussion, i headed to a meeting.. i was still laughing away but still i felt bad..
hope she's okay... i know she's stressed up and all due to the coming exam... i dunno whatta do to lighten her burden.. there's still something about her that others don't really know.. i understand.. and i'll give her time to recover... i wanna balance everything...

What am i to do

its happening again.. >.<

today i tried to talk to her... she was like don't wanna listen or something.. and i felt really bad before going for my duty.. so after bio.. accompany her to find a teacher and walked back to class...

is it me or is it just everyone acted weird lately? first, marilyn was acting cold towards us on last wednesday.. and then it continued until today.. ugh... she don't feel like talking.. why? she only wants to talk to siew tin.. Why? she's acting strange.. WHY?!!! i'm so lost right now.. am i being too sensitive or what? i mean i really did try my best talking to everyone..

my mom said we got lotsa politics in class.. err... sort of.. XP

when you're too close to someone, they think you're weird.. and when you're not close to them.. they think you're strange.. weird+strange=freak...



my aim:

1. wanna be there for my friends


2. wanna help them out whenever they are in need


3. wanna talk to them and have fun


4. just want things back when they were before


5. wanna finish all the stup.. prefect stuffs right away


6. wanna finish moral folio


7. wanna refresh my mind on stuffs


8. wanna make this world a better place


9. wanna be alert in school


10. most of all.. wanna make the best memories in my entire life being with only you

i felt so lonely for a fleeting moment and i just dunno whatta do.. all these probs.. though its no big deal but its a part of something i own.. another case was this junior.. wei kei.. she suddenly acted cold towards me.. dunno why.. last week she was like hi sandra and stuffs.. but this week.. she didn't even care to look at me.. =.= weird... do you think that i'm the cause of all these events?

friends are really something.. i wish that it won't just fade away..

like i'm not close to someone because i have my reasons.. those self-centred ones are out of my friends list.. well i choose friends who are always there for me and vice versa... share stuffs together.. and those who can keep secrets... won't simply let the cat out of the bag.. those who i won't have the scepticism towards them.. those who are fun to hang out with.. i mean for me.. and those who can make me feel like myself in any situations.. so yea..

sorry for not expressing myself properly.. my feelings are all tangled up and its really complicating being me.. haiz..

the main purpose for creating this whole blog thingy is for you to read.. and i guess hardly anyone knows its existence... hahaha...

i missed you a whole lot.. and argh! i just feel so lonely.. >.<

Sob SOB... today can't goooo... boohoo

today nothing much happened.. i just hate dutying recess because Ms know-it-all keeps bugging people.. argh.. like yesterday.. my duty spot was upstairs and she should be guarding downstairs.. so i was reading history and i heard footsteps.. they became louder and louder.. yo... i was so scared its her lo.. i was thinking that she would walk silently without dragging her shoes.. lol.. never thought that she would drag her shoes.. so i laughed.. then she stood beside me and asked "what bab is that ah?" i was like "7".. coldly.. and i didn't wanna layan her and kept staring at my book..
she got no book so she just stood there.. HAHAHA.. the bad part was that she stood there for a super long time and i hate it... =.= couldn't she just go down and check on the others instead? after quite some time, she said "sandra, i go down ady ah.." and i just went "yea.." actually, she can just not tell me that because i didn't even think she was there at all.. it was just me and my book.. hmph!
so today, still upstairs.. and good thing she didn't come to disturb my peace.. haaa... sadly, she came when the bell rang.. haizz.. so so irritating la.. when she said i could go.. i just quickly ran to class before she could even chasing after me.. hahaha... you know... she likes to compete what.. she even wanna challenge who walks to class the fastest.. surely i would be the winner.. LOL.. =.=
so i finally touched my physics homework which i left there collecting dust ages ago.. haha.. and hey, it wasn't that hard though.. its just that you gotta memorise and apply the formulae.. easy peasy.. hmm.. i finished maths homework too.. studied moral.. history after this then i'll be going to bed.. hahaha...
now, i hate fridays because got moral period.. like i got moral period phobia or something.. the teacher is mad and i dunno whats got into her... =.=
anyways, just couldn't wait to touch my phone or com tomorrow when i come back! HAHAHA...

Blur case!

today very boring... bio>add maths>sivics>sj>recess>moral>chinese>add maths>bm... start with bio.. hmm... learnt aerobic respiration and anaerobic respiration...

aerobic respiration :

• occurs when there is enough supply of oxygen
• takes place in the mitochondria
• oxidation of glucose in the presence of oxygen to carbon dioxide, water and energy
• aerobic organisms respire aerobically
• C6H12O6 (gluclose) + 6O2 (oxygen) --> 6CO2 + 6H2O + 2898 kJ (energy)
• 38 molecules of ATP (2898 kJ/mol) is released
• energy is used to synthesise adenosine triphosphate (ATP) from adenosine diphosphate (ADP) and inorganic phosphate
• ADP + phosphate + energy --> ATP
• ATP-- instant source of energy-- main energy supply for all living things
• the phosphate bonds of each ATP molecule can be easily broken down to release energy

anaerobic respiration :

• occurs when there is no more supply of oxygen
• breaks down glucose
• anaerobes respire anaerobically -- bacteria and certain types of yeast
• an active contracting muscle is capable of carrying out this process
• occurs in the cytoplasm

anaerobic respiration which occurs in human muscles :

• during vigorous exercise
• in spite of the increased breathing and heartbeat rate, the blood cannot supply oxygen fast enough
• the muscles are inthe state of oxygen dificiency, oxygen debt occurs
• glucose molecules breaks down partially into lactic acid
• releases 2 molecules of ATP (150 kJ/mol)
• much energy is trapped within the molecules of lactic acid
• C6H12O6 --> 2C3H6O3 (lactic acid) + 150 kJ
• accumulation of lactic acid can reach a high level of concentration which can cause muscle cramps and fatigue
• after a period of intense exercise, a person needs to breathe in deeply and rapidly in orsder to inhale more oxygen
• excess oxygen is used by the body to oxidise the accumulated lactic acid to carbon dioxide and water
• oxidation of lactic acid occurs mainly in the liver

• a portion of the lactic acid is oxidised to produce energy
• the remaining is converted into glycogen and stored in the muscle cells
• oxygen debt is paid off when all the lactic acid is removed
• oxygen debt-- amount of oxygen needed to remove lactic acid from the muscle cells

anaerobic respiration of yeast :

• produces ethanol, carbon dioxide and energy
• the process is known as fermentation and is catalysed by the enzyme zymase
• C6H12O6--> 2C2H5OH (ethanol) + 2CO2 + 210 kJ (energy)
• brewing industry and bread making (ethanol evaporates.. so thats why the bread we eat don't taste like alcohol! lol)

err.. don't think i'm that smart lo.. i didn't memorise everything up here.. HAHA...

hmm.. so add maths very teruk.. at first i get everything but then i got blurred in the end.. now still working on it! hmph! i cannot be confused... argh!

just now, was doing add maths.. and i couldn't think anymore.. had a slight headache so i went to sleep.. for 1 and a half hour.. then i just gotta get up.. haiz...

Surprise...Surprise...Surprise!!!

LOL... i just dunno whatta say! hahaha... okay, here's how it started to get more interesting.. hmm.. school dismissed at 2.40 p.m. and Elaine said we are gonna go to the opposite to have lunch so why not? hahaha.. we were like circling around dunno whatta eat because its kinda late already and nothing much there.. so what the heck.. eat "mee hoon ke" lo... so we waited.. waited.. and waited.. its already 3 something and our food is not here yet.. argh! so slow..

when our food came, wah.. so hungry until i like gobble my food lor.. hahaha.. Elaine slowly eat because i'm always that fast.. dunno why.. anyway, when i finished mine, Elaine was about to finish hers.. so i was like "hey, we long time din go to that cafe in front of us ady right?" she said yes and suddenly she asked.. "err.. your.. your.. your.. err.. bf..." and i was like "what about him?" she said she's not sure its who but she roughly know..? err... dunno what she meant.. lol...

so that subject just drifted away like that.. and when she's done.. Elaine said she wanna go to seven-eleven to buy a drink so lets go... i followed her and crossed the road...
LOL.. so i was like staring at the cafe i said just now.. i just dunno why i did that? and i saw a VERY FAMILIAR looking someone's-back?? hmm... i was like thinking and lol.. you turned... GOOD TIMING? HAHAHAHA...

i was super duper shocked at that time and i dunno how to react.. it was like i'm dreaming or something? its too good to be true and i waved?? lol.. dunno hows my expression at that fleeting moment because you're looking at a super nerdy person... =.=

err... i dunno how it happened and i looked away? sorry.. lol.. still need some practice i guess... hahaha.. or did you turned around? okay.. not really sure about that.. Elaine saw everything and went "ah.. so thats him.." and without hesitation i answered "YUP"... LOL... XP

so we headed to seven-eleven and get her drink.. when she's paying.. my legs were like shaking? lol... too excited to see you.. but dunno whether you're still there or not.. hahaha..

we headed back to school and i glanced through the glass of the cafe again and i spotted you... still there waiting but you didn't turn.. hahaha.. Elaine was like "you wanna join him anot?" sadly i replied "No... its okay.." but deep down its YES, I WANNA JOIN... and NO,IT'S TOTALLY NOT OKAY!!!! argh! i totally regreted what i've said after crossing the road back to school! >.< anyways, i saw your car and i guess i should be satisfied already? lol.. i dunno...

i'm really grateful because :

1. i wasn't staying back for any meeting(its all over starting from this week)
2. i didn't eat in school
3. didn't choose to do my homework in the canteen
4. went to the opposite with Elaine
5. Elaine asked me that question
6. i realised about that cafe
7. could see YOU
8. you waved?
9. could see YOU(your back) again when walking back to school
10. HAHAHA... dunno whats the last one..

eventually, Elaine explained that she saw someone familiar walking towards us but went into that cafe already so thats why she asked about you.. and its a coincidence!! because i was talking about the cafe and thank god i looked inside!!! hahahaha.. okay.. you may think i'm a total insane person right now.. and the truth is, i AM!!! i don't care.. as long i get to see you i'm pleased already...

i went back home.. still thinking about it... really like mad... i was expecting something but nah.. it didn't happen.. so yea.. XP

all in all, i couldn't be any happier than this very day! hahaha.. i mean, we don't meet much or at all like that especially after school.. so i'm mad happy right now! bluek!

SPIRITED AWAY

Spirited Away.. production of Hayao Miyazaki. This is a story about a 10 year old girl, Chihiro who was heading to her new house with her parents. She wasn't so fond of it and she missed her old home. Along the way, her parents pointed their new house at the corner of a hill. Beside their house, there's this huge forest.

Apparently, her father took a short cut which leads to the forest. They saw those small little houses made for the gods and they were kind of scary. Eventually, they reached a dead end and they stopped in front of a red building(spooky). They all got out from the car and headed into the tunnel like passage. Soon they found themselves walking in a town full of yummy food but there wasn't anyone around, not even one person.

Chihiro's father was hungry so he helped himself with the food and her mother followed. She warned her parents not to do so but they just wouldn't listen. She sighed and went to explore the quiet town. She walked to a huge red building. And she noticed that there's smoke coming out from it and she heard the sound of a moving train. There's definitely somebody staying here she thought. She looked down at the bridge and she did see a train. When she turned, a boy was standing in front of her. He was around her age and he urged her to leave immediately.

The sky was getting darker and she rushed back to her parents. And the worst part was that her parents were turned into big FAT pigs and these shadowy images were walking here and there. They were like spirits and they were having their own business. Chihiro was really frightened and she ran away heading to the place they where they first came from.

But it was too late. That red building seemed too far and a river appeared out of nowhere. She couldn't go back. In front of her, came a ferry and spirits with all shapes and sizes came out from it. She got even frightened and ran away from them. Chihiro was hiding at a corner and trying to calm herself down. It all seemed complicated to her when she's trap in a world she barely knows.

That boy she met at the bridge came to her side and asked her to swallow a pill. She did what she was asked and her whole body wasn't translucent anymore. This was due to not eating the food in that world. The boy brought her back to that red building where they met and she is required to hold her breath until she leaves the bridge.

TO BE CONTINUED

anne hathaway.. Anne Hathaway.. ANNE Hathaway.. ANNE HATHAWAY!!!! she's so super awesome in acting and princess diaries is really great when she's in it.. hahaha.. she's pretty she's hot and her smile just melts people.. XP i consider her my no. 1 celebrity.. hehe.. ya know, when those actors and actresses get famous and they'll tend to like wanna get richer.. get involved in more shows and movies.. and they totally suck at that point.. just like.. Miley Cyrus.. ugh.. hate her big time.. she wanna be the next Hillary Duff.. =.= ain't gonna happen.. all in all, ANNE HATHAWAY.. i am confident... that she will remain who she is and continues to be down to earth and smiles to anyone.. lol.. XP i super support you ANNE!!! hahaha...

Christina Aguilera is one super duper singer! ever since i knew her.. hmm.. like standard 1? i've been liking her songs a lot and other singers out there still can't beat her.. HAHAHA... because she has the talent and her voice is so totally powerful.. and i don't even think that others could even reach that stage.. she doesn't need to shout when she sings but its just natural for her to sing high pitches that would just really impress you.. hee..

she's hot and pretty and everything.. i like her a lot since last time till now.. i mean her singing really rocks.. not like Kelly Clarkson or something.. yea.. hahaha.. XP

when i'm lost in the rain

in your eyes i know i'll find the light to light my way

and when i'm scared and losing ground

when my world is going crazy

you can turn it all around

and when i'm down you're there pushing me to the top

you're always there giving me all you've got

for a shield from the storm

for a friend for a love

to keep me safe and warm

i turn to you

for the strength to be strong

for the will to carry on

for everything you do

for everything that's true

i turn to you

when i lose my will to win

i just reach for you and i can reach the sky again

i can do anything

'cause your love is so amazing

'cause your love inspires me

and when i need a friend your always on my side

giving me faith that gets me through the night

for the arms to be my shelter through all the rain

for truth that will never change

for someone to lean on

for a heart i can rely on through anything

for that one who i can run to

i turn to you

What are you doing now?

i was wondering all day about this question.. i'm so scared.. i'm not that brave anymore.. and i guess i've changed? hahaha... okay, concentrate.. ... ... i'll study sj for tomorrow's lesson and a lil bio too... i just hate thursday so much! who invented stress anyway? do you think people are brought to earth just to suffer like this? i'm not optimistic.. i'll try to be one.. >.<
i just missed you so MUCH!!!!!! sob sob...

I NEED a hint!!

i know i'm not supposed to come online.. argh! but i just couldn't resist not posting a blog! i mean, curfew is still on i know but when i just stare at my textbook, i'll think of.. aiya, feel like posting a blog.. haha.. okay, was staring at bio, sj and physics.. my laziness just creeps into me and i don't really have the mood to study.. so yea, i gotta do something i like to please myself and then.. i'll do what i hate doing.. hahaha... i do know that this tactic sucks but i can't up with other ways to keep me studying all the time..
lol.. lets see.. when i feel like dozing off when i'm studying, i'll take out some books i like to keep me awake for another few hours.. hahaha.. >.<
ahhhhh.... i need a hint! those techniques i used last time ain't gonna work this year.. haiz.. and i don't wanna slack this time.. not now not ever! but.. i dunno how.. =.=
the worst part is that i have no determination at all..
i tried real hard to think about the consequences if i don't study hard but i have no urge to push myself to do what is right.. that is.. to study..
actually, i used to think that studying is fun.. like i can gain new knowledge and be better than others for a change? but now... hahaha.. i don't have that kinda point of view anymore.. its like study would just make me feel miserable or something.. why is this happening to me?!
in primary, i was like yea, you win.. its all yours..
lower secondary.. i'm not gonna lose to you.. i wanna kick your butt until you cry on your knees and say.. you win.. you win.. and i'll be like yea, i know.. hahaha.. (really bad)..
lol... now.. you can have anything you want.. i'll give in.. and i don't care or something..
so what should i do now??
HELP ME!!!!

i worked super hard on this drawing.. i made sure that all the angles were correctly drawn and no flaws can be made.. but there's a little but hey.. i'm satisfied with it.. hahaha.. and the story is so totally awesome! hmm.. lets see, i still remembered when i bought this manga, book 1 and 2.. i spent 2 hours going through the first book.. lol.. yea, slow.. but i was going through every word and every picture everything la.. and i stayed up until 3 something to finish the first book.. hahaha.. and i continued with the second book the next day.. XP

Life reflecting on a story..

lol.. though i'm not madly in love with a vampire and always get protection from Edward Cullen(the vampire), yet i just feel like i'm living her life.. XP okay, forget about the vampire part.. hahahaha...

there's always this feeling haunting me ever since i know how nice it feels like to be loved and to love someone.. okay, i got all that from movies and shows.. hehe.. and they kinda like taught me lotsa stuffs about life.. seen bitchy, mean, nice, friendly and fun people for more than a decade now..

and yep, used to be talkative, nosy and clumsy fellow whom people consider annoying.. and i've forgotten when i stopped being such a stupid brat.. so yea, i started being quiet all the time as in antisocial they call it.. and always a loner.. hahaha.. low self-esteem because i'm a nobody.. not smart, nerdy(ugly) and blur.. so yea, that was me..

i always isolate myself from people because i seem ta be an outcast after all.. since i'm so lonely, i read books to keep me accompanied with stories which i dreamed of living the lives of the characters inside.. hahaha.. as i read along, i was like why can't i be like them? why why why why why??!! isn't there someone out there waiting.. i mean.. you know.. =.=

so i've been like i'll stay single then.. forever.. sob sob.. the loneliness was killing me.. helloooo.. anybody there? echoo.... fine, nobody there..

do i sound like i'm eager to have my own that kinda life? i'm not sure though.. just felt lonely.. >.<>

i read twilight last year(2007).. lol.. was still single.. at first, i thought that book was nothing special but as i went through the pages.. i was like not bad!! i mean, this book is like the coolest book ever.. >.<

so this so-called sweet 16 year, was something more than just sweet.. hahaha.. after receiving my PMR results and knowing that hey, i'm actually a somebody.. lol.. i attended guides camp and it was rather fun? hahaha.. quite torturing but then it went well i guess..

so this year, i wanted to improve myself really badly.. i trained every weekend running 10 rounds of a field near my house? lol.. and on that very day of cross country(1st of Feb.. still remembered.. haha), i ran and ran.. finally, i was about to finish.. but i'm not a sprinter.. never will be.. at least i got 10th placing in the senior category.. lol.. i mean this is like really something for mua in my whole secondary life.. i've never tried this hard running before..

okay, out of the subject.. hmm.. where was i?

right, so on that very day i came back from school, i found my long lost friend? lol.. and i replied a day later.. XP and it was quite late so we gotta sleep already.. hahaha.. surprisingly, he said yes that we continue tomorrow? so good ar? i thought.. lol.. i thought people would actually ask me to forget about the whole thing and buh-bye.. ??

so we did continue the next day.. oops.. i'm not gonna go into detail.. so yea.. thats how it started?

and now, i'm truly, awfully, sincerely, superbly grateful to finally have the life i wished of having and thank god for making all these come true! hahahahaha... i couldn't be any happier in my entire life..

so i read eclipse this year.. and i felt like my life now is like reflecting on that story.. lol? anyway, thanks for stepping in to my life.. i just couldn't live without you.. >.<

every second every minute every hour every day being without you just feels like i'm all alone in this complicated world.. lost in the middle of nowhere.. how horrifying that could be..

and when i was down, who pulled me up and gave me hope again?

who made me feel its good to be me and not to pretend to be what you're not?

who thinks i'm actually a somebody in this world?

who makes me happy everytime?

who cares the most?

theres only ONE person in this whole wide world does all the above..

and now, there's something in life i wanna treasure and cherish until the last beat of my heart.. Y-O-U..

Living wih rules that would kill...

okay, ever since i owned my own cellphone, my mom was like keeping an eye on me.. and i remembered i used prepaid number and there's 50 bucks in it.. i dunno whats prepaid so i used it to call my friends for a few days until i can't make any calls at all.. so i was panicking and i told my dad about it.. he was like so cool and said i finished my 50 bucks.. err?? okay.. and i demanded i want a postpaid number!
so on the first day of school of standard 5, my parents went to get one for me which i'm still using it until this very day.. lol.. i gave a lame excuse for owning a cellphone which for emergency uses in school? hahaha.. so i brought my phone to school everyday without anyone knowing it except for my friends.. those trustworthy ones of course.. so until standard 6, i didn't use much of my phone so i kinda asked my mom to cut the line.. and it was restored in form 1?
so now, i've been strictly inflicted by these stupid rules.. how am i gonna live like that?!! lol.. not only phone probs..
like i said, always overdo stuffs.. used to watch lotsa shows until i purposely got up to watch and i've been caught red handed by my mom.. =.= she was angry of course.. i smiled and quickly get the hell up to my room and went to bed.. XP
yea, not only this.. i love to read.. haha.. and books these days ain't cheap.. 2 books 100 over bucks... furthermore, i'll read until i can't control myself.. and finished everything in one whole shot if i'm fully addicted to them.. so my mom was like can you read slower? err... sorry? >.<>.<
no matter how tough it may be, i'll live with it..

I'm someone who always get attached to juniors?

LOL.. izzit me or izzit juniors kept clinging on to me whenever i go? i mean its not like i wanna brag about this? but its like the people i talk to the most are juniors and they seemed happy talking to me.. hmm.. i knew some form 1 girls when we were having our marching practice on tuesday and thursday this week.. and we got closer day by day.. and lol.. yesterday, there's this girl name thong wei kei.. we were like waiting for our turn to march and our crew was like all scattered around because we were finding our friends to talk to.. so i didn't move and i was still standing at the same spot.. whereas the form 1s came surrounding me and started talking to me because i talked to them too.. for once or twice.. hehe.. and we were like sharing jokes.. those cold ones that would make you freeze to death.. lol..
we kinda enjoyed that and they were so like err.. naive when they talk?
wei kei just asked me a question.. "why you don't find your form 4 friends to talk to huh?" and i was like "because they didn't come to find me".. so she joked and said "ouh, then we all form 1 go lor.." "ahh.. no no.. i don't want you to leave.. stay where you are!" i mean, what should i do? get lonelier? nah! so they laughed and we talked more and more..
see.. form 1s are really really friendly kids and they are so nice to talk to when you are bored... its like living in a stress-free world with them.. lol.. really..
they talk about cute stuffs that would make you laugh like hell..
and today, we have our girl guides farewell for the formers so they were wanting to take a whole group picture.. so this lil junior over here.. like to mix around with me ever since she got to know me.. and when i was like standing in a corner.. she asked me to stand beside her.. lol.. thats really nice of her to do so.. i mean nobody there even thought of doing so.. i'm touched.. i mean really.. XP
all in all.. i don't really mix with friends my age but juniors.. except for close friends.. hehehe.. prefects nor students.. you can see me wtih juniors more often.. hahahahaha... i guess thats it for now.. juniors make me laugh though they don't talk about those stuffs like me and my friends do but i'm cool with them.. hee

Marching nightmare

though it ain't that obvious but its a blue-black which i got from banging on to one of my junior's hand while marching.. so painful!! ahhhhh...

About one's self

well, i'm kinda like a super ordinary person who don't really understand myself well nor others.. and i'm just only interested in knowing more about somebody.. the only one in this world.. so yea.. haha
i'm always so blur with stuffs and i tend to do things half-heartedly.. lol.. like writing a story last year.. or maybe i should continue with it someday? haha.. anyway, i'm an antisocial type.. bad in socializing with others and my parents think i should try to be like my cousins.. =.= yea, i'm trying real hard to do so and still working on it?
used to be super clumsy when i was little and people used to hate me for that.. XP
seems like i've improved now? lol.. and i'm happy with my life ever since that day.. hahaha.. yea, and thats the main reason why i'm still living happily right now.. thank god so much for my dreams and all to come true! lol..
i don't go out much.. haha.. i'll do anything for a friend in need no matter what.. i mean if they really are my true friends.. XP
i'm that kinda person who don't smile much.. lol.. except for photo shots, friends and families.. hehe.. and most of all that someone.. lol..
i love music and art.. animes.. and other stuffs.. not sure though.. haha..
wanting to prove that i'm a somebody and not a nobody in this world.. ever wonder why smart people always get the credit and normal people won't be appreciated? thats so unfair though!
i'll do anything to be a better person in life.. i wanna guide people to find their way back or maybe to a new future.. lol! stuffs like that.. >.<
i'll always overdo stuffs like read too much.. talk too much on the phone.. sms too much.. online until very late at night and others.. hahahaha.. yep, thats me.. XP
i'm a super fan of Hayao Miyazaki.. since standard 4.. lol.. his films are so totally awesome and inspiring.. thats the best part about japanese! lol.. thats my point of view.. hehe
hmm.. take things for granted.. and i usually get lectured from that.. sob sob...
lazy at times but well disciplined when i'm determined to do something..
don't ever think of challenging me when i have everything in my hands.. you'll lose.. lol..
hot headed and i'll show you who's boss when i get mad..
love philosophical stuffs a lot because they bring meaning to life and not crappy stuffs..
hate people who are being lebih because they're loud and they are self-centred.. they think they're the only ones in this whole planet and we should listen to their stupid speech.. get a grip..
i love my life now because lotsa stuffs have changed ever since THAT DAY(again)---thats when i started to discover more happenings in life.. hahaha..
i love ta make people laugh.. its like my fav past time.. hehe.. they make me happy when they do that.. so yea..
i don't get people who are so perasan and can't keep their cool.. thats so lame of them.. =.=
showing off is never a good thing to do.. but sometimes you have to fight back by doing this to make people realise stuffs.. yea, SOMETIMES..
i guess thats all for the time being.. haha

Never let certs and marks deceive you in doing things you don't even like

even though i am not fond of certs nor marks given in my ko-ku record yet i was still chosen for the 31st of August march out.. UGH!! ya know what i think? THEY shouldn't be inflicting this collecting-certs-mission norm showing that you're active and all in innocent people's life! how despicable can they be to do so.. i was not happy at all when i knew i was chosen and my friend asked me to chill because they're giving out certs.. spst! so what?!
LOL.. at first i thought certs are important to kinda like apply for stuffs but then on second thought, they worth nothing at all.. sigh..
and now, i'm totally not getting myself involved in this kinda situation again unless i'm forced to do so.. yea, unlucky me.. gonna get darker and soon.. i'll be an african girl.. XP

Never to sit with a brainiac unless you are ready to do so

okay, here's the thing.. i sat beside a master mind last year by mistake.. it wasn't my idea.. at all.. it was someone who was so eager to sit with smart people until she dragged me along and said " hey, why not sit with her?" i was like.. =.= you serious? lol.. i was reluctant to but then i just followed what she said.. eventually, i got stuck with that brainiac for a whole year and i suffered a lot!!!! she elbows me whenever she wants me to listen to her or something.. ugh! thinks she's so great ei? think again! i've been not-liking or maybe hating her ever since i sat with her last year.. all in all, i did learn something from her.. that is to be disciplined when you're studying? i got up at 3 in the morning to study last year.. but for this year.. i got lazier and stupid-er.. because maybe form 4 life is too relaxing? lol.. i dunno.. maybe my determination haven't get arrive yet.. hahahaha.. oops.. terpesong cerita.. okay, lets get back to the topic.. hmm.. so yea, i noticed that she's been trying to be everything though she already knew that its impossible to do so because people aren't perfect afterall.. so PLS get the picture dude!! anyway.. don't feel like talking about her anymore.. its really frustrating.. conclusion, you'll suffer with these kinda people.. one thing is for sure is that they aint good in art!!! wakakakaka...

still waiting in singapore airport.. haha.. bored..

lol.. free internet access!! cool.. love this place(singapore airport)..

at klia airport.. waiting for our flight to singapore... hehe.. nagoya group rawks!!

me and zhi yin in concorde inn hall? having a course before leaving for jap.. lol.. dunno why did she do that though.. =.=

still us.. sek enn and mua.. pointing at nothing in the sky.. bored.. haha..

sek enn and mua.. outside yok bin secondary.. haha.. got nothing to do though so we decided to take pictures! haha..

the ugliest look that i'll ever have being an emcee.. 22nd march 2008 ndc girl guides campfire.. luok wen beside.. hehe..

steph and mua.. she was trying my phone camera.. lol.. it works perfectly fine!!

haha.. new hair cut after cny.. wee.. ^^

lol.. with my mom on the first day of cny at gua mah's house.. looked weird?

Aileen ah kor> me> uncle Lim

lol.. best buddies..

this pic was taken on my b'day.. lol.. first day of school 2008.. "Happy sweet 16 to mua" wahahaha.. okay, i'll cut that out... err.. haha..

ME

lol.. this is me when i still have my long hair? missed it real much! haha.. and i won't ever do the self snapping thing again.. >.<