okay.. today i didn't care much... so during bio period i sat on my usual seat in the lab.. and i also reserved a place for her but then she went to sit in front of me... suan liao lo... =.=
she was like angry or something.. so i asked hui tin to sit beside me... after bio period we went back to our class and i felt even awkward...
during recess, i was standing on my duty spot with hannah and she came down glaring at hannah... >.< haizzz.. hannah was predicting that she'll break down anytime soon.. so after recess she came up with watery eyes and yup, hannah was right.. sze li and zen huei asked me to cheer her up and stuffs.. i did try my best to do so but all i get was nothing.. nothing.. no.. no... what was i supposed to do? i got nothing.. so i just let her cool down for a bit.. well, i guess the whole thing started last wednesday where she was counting on me to bring her homework and stuffs to mr oh's because she was absent on that day.. so i forgot to bring my book there for her to copy so i felt really really bad.. i apologised to her by sending a message saying i'm such a loser because i couldn't even complete a simple task.. and i recalled what happened last time.. i'll do whatever it takes to make it up to her.. so yea, that was what i said..
and on the following day.. i felt weirder.. she didn't wanna talk to me? err.. what happened? i thought we were totally cool wtih stuffs.. but then it turned out this way.. so i continued talking to hannah and all.. well, we were really close at the beginning than with hannah.. because i wasn't ready to tell hannah anything yet.. not the right time? but eventually, hannah found out herself so i guess there's no need to hide anything anymore.. so i let everthing out without further hesitation.. so from that point, both of them were equal and as time passes by three of us got closer.. when i have stuffs to tell, one would be dutying and the other would be in the big hall.. so which one should i tell first? err.. so in order to be fair, i wouldn't mind if i were to repeat what i said to the other... so they were like a lever balance.. sometimes, i'll accidentally put more load on one side and the other would become lighter.. and i did realise my mistake so i tried talking to them as much as i could? the fact that hannah is sitting beside me and it is likely for me to talk to her more but i would still turn to the back to talk to my friend..
but there's one day, she asked siew tin whether i was talking to hannah more and ignoring her.. siew tin told her that she think too much.. but then that idea really got into her.. she acted cold towards us and that was what happened i guess..
so just now, i burst into laughters when hui tin was singing the pussy cat dolls' "when i grow up".. it wasn't that she sang badly but it was funny.. i know its bad of me to do that.. but it was funny what.. couldn't help it...
we didn't talk until she took her bag and head for the door when school dismissed.. i managed to say goodbye but she was like reluctant to reply? suan liao.. i stayed back in class with sze li and hui qi talking about what drastic actions should be taken tomorrow.. stupid but that was all i got.. so after our discussion, i headed to a meeting.. i was still laughing away but still i felt bad..
hope she's okay... i know she's stressed up and all due to the coming exam... i dunno whatta do to lighten her burden.. there's still something about her that others don't really know.. i understand.. and i'll give her time to recover... i wanna balance everything...
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i predicted this since the starting of this year...
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