today i tried to talk to her... she was like don't wanna listen or something.. and i felt really bad before going for my duty.. so after bio.. accompany her to find a teacher and walked back to class...
is it me or is it just everyone acted weird lately? first, marilyn was acting cold towards us on last wednesday.. and then it continued until today.. ugh... she don't feel like talking.. why? she only wants to talk to siew tin.. Why? she's acting strange.. WHY?!!! i'm so lost right now.. am i being too sensitive or what? i mean i really did try my best talking to everyone..
my mom said we got lotsa politics in class.. err... sort of.. XP
when you're too close to someone, they think you're weird.. and when you're not close to them.. they think you're strange.. weird+strange=freak...
my aim:
- wanna be there for my friends
- wanna help them out whenever they are in need
- wanna talk to them and have fun
- just want things back when they were before
- wanna finish all the stup.. prefect stuffs right away
- wanna finish moral folio
- wanna refresh my mind on stuffs
- wanna make this world a better place
- wanna be alert in school
- most of all.. wanna make the best memories in my entire life being with only you
i felt so lonely for a fleeting moment and i just dunno whatta do.. all these probs.. though its no big deal but its a part of something i own.. another case was this junior.. wei kei.. she suddenly acted cold towards me.. dunno why.. last week she was like hi sandra and stuffs.. but this week.. she didn't even care to look at me.. =.= weird... do you think that i'm the cause of all these events?
friends are really something.. i wish that it won't just fade away..
like i'm not close to someone because i have my reasons.. those self-centred ones are out of my friends list.. well i choose friends who are always there for me and vice versa... share stuffs together.. and those who can keep secrets... won't simply let the cat out of the bag.. those who i won't have the scepticism towards them.. those who are fun to hang out with.. i mean for me.. and those who can make me feel like myself in any situations.. so yea..
sorry for not expressing myself properly.. my feelings are all tangled up and its really complicating being me.. haiz..
the main purpose for creating this whole blog thingy is for you to read.. and i guess hardly anyone knows its existence... hahaha...
i missed you a whole lot.. and argh! i just feel so lonely.. >.<
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