I NEED a hint!!

i know i'm not supposed to come online.. argh! but i just couldn't resist not posting a blog! i mean, curfew is still on i know but when i just stare at my textbook, i'll think of.. aiya, feel like posting a blog.. haha.. okay, was staring at bio, sj and physics.. my laziness just creeps into me and i don't really have the mood to study.. so yea, i gotta do something i like to please myself and then.. i'll do what i hate doing.. hahaha... i do know that this tactic sucks but i can't up with other ways to keep me studying all the time..
lol.. lets see.. when i feel like dozing off when i'm studying, i'll take out some books i like to keep me awake for another few hours.. hahaha.. >.<
ahhhhh.... i need a hint! those techniques i used last time ain't gonna work this year.. haiz.. and i don't wanna slack this time.. not now not ever! but.. i dunno how.. =.=
the worst part is that i have no determination at all..
i tried real hard to think about the consequences if i don't study hard but i have no urge to push myself to do what is right.. that is.. to study..
actually, i used to think that studying is fun.. like i can gain new knowledge and be better than others for a change? but now... hahaha.. i don't have that kinda point of view anymore.. its like study would just make me feel miserable or something.. why is this happening to me?!
in primary, i was like yea, you win.. its all yours..
lower secondary.. i'm not gonna lose to you.. i wanna kick your butt until you cry on your knees and say.. you win.. you win.. and i'll be like yea, i know.. hahaha.. (really bad)..
lol... now.. you can have anything you want.. i'll give in.. and i don't care or something..
so what should i do now??
HELP ME!!!!