The beauty of patience? lol

well, to be honest again.. when i was working that time, there's this guy disturbing me right? and i took revenge disturbing back? okay... we talked for like a month because i was working there for a month too... so he mentioned about his gf or something.. and i was like... so good got gf.. i'm such a loner lo.. he told me to be patient? lol.. i was like half taking that into account and half not... so i didn't bother much of these...
and he kept teasing me also.. stupid fella... argh!!! yea.. i know he's such a jerk lo... =.= never mind.. i, sandra ong... will continue to wait... dunno don't care... maybe its not gonna happen for this typical person here but i'll still continue to live my life although it sucks big time... that was what i thought all the while...
nope, i haven't given up yet.. i waited and waited and waited... people come and go.. so i met new friends and they walk in and out of my life... like i even care... so i started to focus on my friends... i mean school girl-y friends... hahahaha... maybe i'll be happier being with them without thinking of anything else like those stupid stories and fantasies...
yea, about the girl guides camp... i met this junior... she's really helpful and its nice helping each other... okay.. you can say junior magnetism activated at that time... because friends the same age exerts pressure and i don't feel like hanging out with them... they couldn't really make me laugh like the way those juniors do...
well, fate seemed to be sympathetic... maybe it knows that i'm like too miserable to live another year or something... and someone just happened to choose the right time and the right you know and appeared once again... lol... i never thought such err.. chances would actually happen to me... so i was just lucky i guess.. hehehe...
so okay.. i thought friends only ma... can be close friends maybe.. i don't care.. as long as i have a good and nice friend its already enough.. though sometimes i kinda think too much but i would try to avoid that thought.. you know.. THAT THOUGHT... don't wanna be perasan too...
but i did tell you how i feel being.. Jealo... yea.. i also told you 2 times too.. and you were blur and you felt guilty.. dunno why... okay, i guess when i was jea.. i already.. had that thing going on in my mind... so i couldn't avoid it.. its getting stronger... lol.. dunno what to say... was speechless everytime though... but i tried to hide it... as sneaky as possible... hee...
right, i did give some hints but i guess they didn't seem to work or something... so suan liao... lol... and i didn't know you gave me hints too though.. XP silly me.. it felt good? gotta admit it.. it really did give me happiness and all... its like i'll be the only one having that kinda feelings all to myself... no one can ever have it... thats how i felt... hahahaha... i could have sworn that i was like soaring in the skies above...
that day haven't come yet.. nope.. not yet.. hahahaha.... i told you i have a foster brother... no sister and no other girls in the house except my foster mother... so yea.. i was busy packing and all... hahahaha..
right.. nearly forgotten.. i didn't get myself involved with other guys because like what for? lol.. seriously, though just friends but i think you're the very best already... hehehe... and i'm still proud of myself for not indulging myself in unnecessary stuffs.. i was on the safe side then..
so the day had finally come and i was speechless at first.. because i couldn't believe it would actually happen between us.. i was like this =.= because it was still very imaginary.... lol.. its true true though... its like impossible... you-me.. me-you? do i deserve this ah?
so i requested for a confirmation to prove that it wasn't a practical joke or something.. XP and it proved to be true though... and i'm really living in reality here...
well, i'm glad i had the patience to wait until the right person to step onto my doorstep... so i'll say... WELCOME... lol...
so i hope its long enough because i think there's more but someone here just couldn't stop bugging me.. she wants to use the com already... sighs... oh well, i'll try to think of a good one.. i mean i want the very best in the world for the one and only you... so no mistakes or anything can ever occur.. yep.. perfect for you... ^^