My presumption is proved to be true

okay.. today i didn't care much... so during bio period i sat on my usual seat in the lab.. and i also reserved a place for her but then she went to sit in front of me... suan liao lo... =.=
she was like angry or something.. so i asked hui tin to sit beside me... after bio period we went back to our class and i felt even awkward...
during recess, i was standing on my duty spot with hannah and she came down glaring at hannah... >.< haizzz.. hannah was predicting that she'll break down anytime soon.. so after recess she came up with watery eyes and yup, hannah was right.. sze li and zen huei asked me to cheer her up and stuffs.. i did try my best to do so but all i get was nothing.. nothing.. no.. no... what was i supposed to do? i got nothing.. so i just let her cool down for a bit.. well, i guess the whole thing started last wednesday where she was counting on me to bring her homework and stuffs to mr oh's because she was absent on that day.. so i forgot to bring my book there for her to copy so i felt really really bad.. i apologised to her by sending a message saying i'm such a loser because i couldn't even complete a simple task.. and i recalled what happened last time.. i'll do whatever it takes to make it up to her.. so yea, that was what i said..
and on the following day.. i felt weirder.. she didn't wanna talk to me? err.. what happened? i thought we were totally cool wtih stuffs.. but then it turned out this way.. so i continued talking to hannah and all.. well, we were really close at the beginning than with hannah.. because i wasn't ready to tell hannah anything yet.. not the right time? but eventually, hannah found out herself so i guess there's no need to hide anything anymore.. so i let everthing out without further hesitation.. so from that point, both of them were equal and as time passes by three of us got closer.. when i have stuffs to tell, one would be dutying and the other would be in the big hall.. so which one should i tell first? err.. so in order to be fair, i wouldn't mind if i were to repeat what i said to the other... so they were like a lever balance.. sometimes, i'll accidentally put more load on one side and the other would become lighter.. and i did realise my mistake so i tried talking to them as much as i could? the fact that hannah is sitting beside me and it is likely for me to talk to her more but i would still turn to the back to talk to my friend..
but there's one day, she asked siew tin whether i was talking to hannah more and ignoring her.. siew tin told her that she think too much.. but then that idea really got into her.. she acted cold towards us and that was what happened i guess..
so just now, i burst into laughters when hui tin was singing the pussy cat dolls' "when i grow up".. it wasn't that she sang badly but it was funny.. i know its bad of me to do that.. but it was funny what.. couldn't help it...
we didn't talk until she took her bag and head for the door when school dismissed.. i managed to say goodbye but she was like reluctant to reply? suan liao.. i stayed back in class with sze li and hui qi talking about what drastic actions should be taken tomorrow.. stupid but that was all i got.. so after our discussion, i headed to a meeting.. i was still laughing away but still i felt bad..
hope she's okay... i know she's stressed up and all due to the coming exam... i dunno whatta do to lighten her burden.. there's still something about her that others don't really know.. i understand.. and i'll give her time to recover... i wanna balance everything...

What am i to do

its happening again.. >.<

today i tried to talk to her... she was like don't wanna listen or something.. and i felt really bad before going for my duty.. so after bio.. accompany her to find a teacher and walked back to class...

is it me or is it just everyone acted weird lately? first, marilyn was acting cold towards us on last wednesday.. and then it continued until today.. ugh... she don't feel like talking.. why? she only wants to talk to siew tin.. Why? she's acting strange.. WHY?!!! i'm so lost right now.. am i being too sensitive or what? i mean i really did try my best talking to everyone..

my mom said we got lotsa politics in class.. err... sort of.. XP

when you're too close to someone, they think you're weird.. and when you're not close to them.. they think you're strange.. weird+strange=freak...



my aim:

1. wanna be there for my friends


2. wanna help them out whenever they are in need


3. wanna talk to them and have fun


4. just want things back when they were before


5. wanna finish all the stup.. prefect stuffs right away


6. wanna finish moral folio


7. wanna refresh my mind on stuffs


8. wanna make this world a better place


9. wanna be alert in school


10. most of all.. wanna make the best memories in my entire life being with only you

i felt so lonely for a fleeting moment and i just dunno whatta do.. all these probs.. though its no big deal but its a part of something i own.. another case was this junior.. wei kei.. she suddenly acted cold towards me.. dunno why.. last week she was like hi sandra and stuffs.. but this week.. she didn't even care to look at me.. =.= weird... do you think that i'm the cause of all these events?

friends are really something.. i wish that it won't just fade away..

like i'm not close to someone because i have my reasons.. those self-centred ones are out of my friends list.. well i choose friends who are always there for me and vice versa... share stuffs together.. and those who can keep secrets... won't simply let the cat out of the bag.. those who i won't have the scepticism towards them.. those who are fun to hang out with.. i mean for me.. and those who can make me feel like myself in any situations.. so yea..

sorry for not expressing myself properly.. my feelings are all tangled up and its really complicating being me.. haiz..

the main purpose for creating this whole blog thingy is for you to read.. and i guess hardly anyone knows its existence... hahaha...

i missed you a whole lot.. and argh! i just feel so lonely.. >.<

Sob SOB... today can't goooo... boohoo

today nothing much happened.. i just hate dutying recess because Ms know-it-all keeps bugging people.. argh.. like yesterday.. my duty spot was upstairs and she should be guarding downstairs.. so i was reading history and i heard footsteps.. they became louder and louder.. yo... i was so scared its her lo.. i was thinking that she would walk silently without dragging her shoes.. lol.. never thought that she would drag her shoes.. so i laughed.. then she stood beside me and asked "what bab is that ah?" i was like "7".. coldly.. and i didn't wanna layan her and kept staring at my book..
she got no book so she just stood there.. HAHAHA.. the bad part was that she stood there for a super long time and i hate it... =.= couldn't she just go down and check on the others instead? after quite some time, she said "sandra, i go down ady ah.." and i just went "yea.." actually, she can just not tell me that because i didn't even think she was there at all.. it was just me and my book.. hmph!
so today, still upstairs.. and good thing she didn't come to disturb my peace.. haaa... sadly, she came when the bell rang.. haizz.. so so irritating la.. when she said i could go.. i just quickly ran to class before she could even chasing after me.. hahaha... you know... she likes to compete what.. she even wanna challenge who walks to class the fastest.. surely i would be the winner.. LOL.. =.=
so i finally touched my physics homework which i left there collecting dust ages ago.. haha.. and hey, it wasn't that hard though.. its just that you gotta memorise and apply the formulae.. easy peasy.. hmm.. i finished maths homework too.. studied moral.. history after this then i'll be going to bed.. hahaha...
now, i hate fridays because got moral period.. like i got moral period phobia or something.. the teacher is mad and i dunno whats got into her... =.=
anyways, just couldn't wait to touch my phone or com tomorrow when i come back! HAHAHA...

Blur case!

today very boring... bio>add maths>sivics>sj>recess>moral>chinese>add maths>bm... start with bio.. hmm... learnt aerobic respiration and anaerobic respiration...

aerobic respiration :

• occurs when there is enough supply of oxygen
• takes place in the mitochondria
• oxidation of glucose in the presence of oxygen to carbon dioxide, water and energy
• aerobic organisms respire aerobically
• C6H12O6 (gluclose) + 6O2 (oxygen) --> 6CO2 + 6H2O + 2898 kJ (energy)
• 38 molecules of ATP (2898 kJ/mol) is released
• energy is used to synthesise adenosine triphosphate (ATP) from adenosine diphosphate (ADP) and inorganic phosphate
• ADP + phosphate + energy --> ATP
• ATP-- instant source of energy-- main energy supply for all living things
• the phosphate bonds of each ATP molecule can be easily broken down to release energy

anaerobic respiration :

• occurs when there is no more supply of oxygen
• breaks down glucose
• anaerobes respire anaerobically -- bacteria and certain types of yeast
• an active contracting muscle is capable of carrying out this process
• occurs in the cytoplasm

anaerobic respiration which occurs in human muscles :

• during vigorous exercise
• in spite of the increased breathing and heartbeat rate, the blood cannot supply oxygen fast enough
• the muscles are inthe state of oxygen dificiency, oxygen debt occurs
• glucose molecules breaks down partially into lactic acid
• releases 2 molecules of ATP (150 kJ/mol)
• much energy is trapped within the molecules of lactic acid
• C6H12O6 --> 2C3H6O3 (lactic acid) + 150 kJ
• accumulation of lactic acid can reach a high level of concentration which can cause muscle cramps and fatigue
• after a period of intense exercise, a person needs to breathe in deeply and rapidly in orsder to inhale more oxygen
• excess oxygen is used by the body to oxidise the accumulated lactic acid to carbon dioxide and water
• oxidation of lactic acid occurs mainly in the liver

• a portion of the lactic acid is oxidised to produce energy
• the remaining is converted into glycogen and stored in the muscle cells
• oxygen debt is paid off when all the lactic acid is removed
• oxygen debt-- amount of oxygen needed to remove lactic acid from the muscle cells

anaerobic respiration of yeast :

• produces ethanol, carbon dioxide and energy
• the process is known as fermentation and is catalysed by the enzyme zymase
• C6H12O6--> 2C2H5OH (ethanol) + 2CO2 + 210 kJ (energy)
• brewing industry and bread making (ethanol evaporates.. so thats why the bread we eat don't taste like alcohol! lol)

err.. don't think i'm that smart lo.. i didn't memorise everything up here.. HAHA...

hmm.. so add maths very teruk.. at first i get everything but then i got blurred in the end.. now still working on it! hmph! i cannot be confused... argh!

just now, was doing add maths.. and i couldn't think anymore.. had a slight headache so i went to sleep.. for 1 and a half hour.. then i just gotta get up.. haiz...

Surprise...Surprise...Surprise!!!

LOL... i just dunno whatta say! hahaha... okay, here's how it started to get more interesting.. hmm.. school dismissed at 2.40 p.m. and Elaine said we are gonna go to the opposite to have lunch so why not? hahaha.. we were like circling around dunno whatta eat because its kinda late already and nothing much there.. so what the heck.. eat "mee hoon ke" lo... so we waited.. waited.. and waited.. its already 3 something and our food is not here yet.. argh! so slow..

when our food came, wah.. so hungry until i like gobble my food lor.. hahaha.. Elaine slowly eat because i'm always that fast.. dunno why.. anyway, when i finished mine, Elaine was about to finish hers.. so i was like "hey, we long time din go to that cafe in front of us ady right?" she said yes and suddenly she asked.. "err.. your.. your.. your.. err.. bf..." and i was like "what about him?" she said she's not sure its who but she roughly know..? err... dunno what she meant.. lol...

so that subject just drifted away like that.. and when she's done.. Elaine said she wanna go to seven-eleven to buy a drink so lets go... i followed her and crossed the road...
LOL.. so i was like staring at the cafe i said just now.. i just dunno why i did that? and i saw a VERY FAMILIAR looking someone's-back?? hmm... i was like thinking and lol.. you turned... GOOD TIMING? HAHAHAHA...

i was super duper shocked at that time and i dunno how to react.. it was like i'm dreaming or something? its too good to be true and i waved?? lol.. dunno hows my expression at that fleeting moment because you're looking at a super nerdy person... =.=

err... i dunno how it happened and i looked away? sorry.. lol.. still need some practice i guess... hahaha.. or did you turned around? okay.. not really sure about that.. Elaine saw everything and went "ah.. so thats him.." and without hesitation i answered "YUP"... LOL... XP

so we headed to seven-eleven and get her drink.. when she's paying.. my legs were like shaking? lol... too excited to see you.. but dunno whether you're still there or not.. hahaha..

we headed back to school and i glanced through the glass of the cafe again and i spotted you... still there waiting but you didn't turn.. hahaha.. Elaine was like "you wanna join him anot?" sadly i replied "No... its okay.." but deep down its YES, I WANNA JOIN... and NO,IT'S TOTALLY NOT OKAY!!!! argh! i totally regreted what i've said after crossing the road back to school! >.< anyways, i saw your car and i guess i should be satisfied already? lol.. i dunno...

i'm really grateful because :

1. i wasn't staying back for any meeting(its all over starting from this week)
2. i didn't eat in school
3. didn't choose to do my homework in the canteen
4. went to the opposite with Elaine
5. Elaine asked me that question
6. i realised about that cafe
7. could see YOU
8. you waved?
9. could see YOU(your back) again when walking back to school
10. HAHAHA... dunno whats the last one..

eventually, Elaine explained that she saw someone familiar walking towards us but went into that cafe already so thats why she asked about you.. and its a coincidence!! because i was talking about the cafe and thank god i looked inside!!! hahahaha.. okay.. you may think i'm a total insane person right now.. and the truth is, i AM!!! i don't care.. as long i get to see you i'm pleased already...

i went back home.. still thinking about it... really like mad... i was expecting something but nah.. it didn't happen.. so yea.. XP

all in all, i couldn't be any happier than this very day! hahaha.. i mean, we don't meet much or at all like that especially after school.. so i'm mad happy right now! bluek!

SPIRITED AWAY

Spirited Away.. production of Hayao Miyazaki. This is a story about a 10 year old girl, Chihiro who was heading to her new house with her parents. She wasn't so fond of it and she missed her old home. Along the way, her parents pointed their new house at the corner of a hill. Beside their house, there's this huge forest.

Apparently, her father took a short cut which leads to the forest. They saw those small little houses made for the gods and they were kind of scary. Eventually, they reached a dead end and they stopped in front of a red building(spooky). They all got out from the car and headed into the tunnel like passage. Soon they found themselves walking in a town full of yummy food but there wasn't anyone around, not even one person.

Chihiro's father was hungry so he helped himself with the food and her mother followed. She warned her parents not to do so but they just wouldn't listen. She sighed and went to explore the quiet town. She walked to a huge red building. And she noticed that there's smoke coming out from it and she heard the sound of a moving train. There's definitely somebody staying here she thought. She looked down at the bridge and she did see a train. When she turned, a boy was standing in front of her. He was around her age and he urged her to leave immediately.

The sky was getting darker and she rushed back to her parents. And the worst part was that her parents were turned into big FAT pigs and these shadowy images were walking here and there. They were like spirits and they were having their own business. Chihiro was really frightened and she ran away heading to the place they where they first came from.

But it was too late. That red building seemed too far and a river appeared out of nowhere. She couldn't go back. In front of her, came a ferry and spirits with all shapes and sizes came out from it. She got even frightened and ran away from them. Chihiro was hiding at a corner and trying to calm herself down. It all seemed complicated to her when she's trap in a world she barely knows.

That boy she met at the bridge came to her side and asked her to swallow a pill. She did what she was asked and her whole body wasn't translucent anymore. This was due to not eating the food in that world. The boy brought her back to that red building where they met and she is required to hold her breath until she leaves the bridge.

TO BE CONTINUED

anne hathaway.. Anne Hathaway.. ANNE Hathaway.. ANNE HATHAWAY!!!! she's so super awesome in acting and princess diaries is really great when she's in it.. hahaha.. she's pretty she's hot and her smile just melts people.. XP i consider her my no. 1 celebrity.. hehe.. ya know, when those actors and actresses get famous and they'll tend to like wanna get richer.. get involved in more shows and movies.. and they totally suck at that point.. just like.. Miley Cyrus.. ugh.. hate her big time.. she wanna be the next Hillary Duff.. =.= ain't gonna happen.. all in all, ANNE HATHAWAY.. i am confident... that she will remain who she is and continues to be down to earth and smiles to anyone.. lol.. XP i super support you ANNE!!! hahaha...

Christina Aguilera is one super duper singer! ever since i knew her.. hmm.. like standard 1? i've been liking her songs a lot and other singers out there still can't beat her.. HAHAHA... because she has the talent and her voice is so totally powerful.. and i don't even think that others could even reach that stage.. she doesn't need to shout when she sings but its just natural for her to sing high pitches that would just really impress you.. hee..

she's hot and pretty and everything.. i like her a lot since last time till now.. i mean her singing really rocks.. not like Kelly Clarkson or something.. yea.. hahaha.. XP

when i'm lost in the rain

in your eyes i know i'll find the light to light my way

and when i'm scared and losing ground

when my world is going crazy

you can turn it all around

and when i'm down you're there pushing me to the top

you're always there giving me all you've got

for a shield from the storm

for a friend for a love

to keep me safe and warm

i turn to you

for the strength to be strong

for the will to carry on

for everything you do

for everything that's true

i turn to you

when i lose my will to win

i just reach for you and i can reach the sky again

i can do anything

'cause your love is so amazing

'cause your love inspires me

and when i need a friend your always on my side

giving me faith that gets me through the night

for the arms to be my shelter through all the rain

for truth that will never change

for someone to lean on

for a heart i can rely on through anything

for that one who i can run to

i turn to you

What are you doing now?

i was wondering all day about this question.. i'm so scared.. i'm not that brave anymore.. and i guess i've changed? hahaha... okay, concentrate.. ... ... i'll study sj for tomorrow's lesson and a lil bio too... i just hate thursday so much! who invented stress anyway? do you think people are brought to earth just to suffer like this? i'm not optimistic.. i'll try to be one.. >.<
i just missed you so MUCH!!!!!! sob sob...

I NEED a hint!!

i know i'm not supposed to come online.. argh! but i just couldn't resist not posting a blog! i mean, curfew is still on i know but when i just stare at my textbook, i'll think of.. aiya, feel like posting a blog.. haha.. okay, was staring at bio, sj and physics.. my laziness just creeps into me and i don't really have the mood to study.. so yea, i gotta do something i like to please myself and then.. i'll do what i hate doing.. hahaha... i do know that this tactic sucks but i can't up with other ways to keep me studying all the time..
lol.. lets see.. when i feel like dozing off when i'm studying, i'll take out some books i like to keep me awake for another few hours.. hahaha.. >.<
ahhhhh.... i need a hint! those techniques i used last time ain't gonna work this year.. haiz.. and i don't wanna slack this time.. not now not ever! but.. i dunno how.. =.=
the worst part is that i have no determination at all..
i tried real hard to think about the consequences if i don't study hard but i have no urge to push myself to do what is right.. that is.. to study..
actually, i used to think that studying is fun.. like i can gain new knowledge and be better than others for a change? but now... hahaha.. i don't have that kinda point of view anymore.. its like study would just make me feel miserable or something.. why is this happening to me?!
in primary, i was like yea, you win.. its all yours..
lower secondary.. i'm not gonna lose to you.. i wanna kick your butt until you cry on your knees and say.. you win.. you win.. and i'll be like yea, i know.. hahaha.. (really bad)..
lol... now.. you can have anything you want.. i'll give in.. and i don't care or something..
so what should i do now??
HELP ME!!!!

i worked super hard on this drawing.. i made sure that all the angles were correctly drawn and no flaws can be made.. but there's a little but hey.. i'm satisfied with it.. hahaha.. and the story is so totally awesome! hmm.. lets see, i still remembered when i bought this manga, book 1 and 2.. i spent 2 hours going through the first book.. lol.. yea, slow.. but i was going through every word and every picture everything la.. and i stayed up until 3 something to finish the first book.. hahaha.. and i continued with the second book the next day.. XP